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Creativity Photographers Photography Serendipity Writing

He Taught Us How to See

Michelangelo said he didnโ€™t create his sculptures. He just removed the marble that wasnโ€™t the statue.

Iโ€™ve been thinking about that lately. About what it means to have a collaborator whose job isnโ€™t to add things but to help you find whatโ€™s already there. Iโ€™ve been doing that kind of work recently โ€” the excavation kind โ€” and it has changed how I write and honestly how much I enjoy the making of it.

But Iโ€™m getting ahead of myself. Start with Jay.

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Storytelling Writing

The Craft in the Work: A Reading Guide to Ten Storytellers

Thereโ€™s a kind of reading thatโ€™s really a form of listening โ€” not to what a writer is saying but to how theyโ€™re solving a problem. Every great piece of nonfiction is an argument about structure, and most writers never explain it aloud. The argument is in the choices: where the piece starts, when it digresses, what it leaves out, how it ends. You can enjoy the work without seeing any of this. But once you start seeing it, you canโ€™t stop โ€” and eventually, some of it becomes yours.

This guide is for both kinds of reading. Each writer here is worth your time as a reader. Each one also has something specific and stealable for anyone who writes. Iโ€™ve tried to name both.

The ten: John McPhee, Robert Caro, John Jeremiah Sullivan, Michael Lewis, Joan Didion, David Grann, Sam Anderson, Susan Orlean, Tom Junod, and Wright Thompson. Different registers, different obsessions, different methods. What they share is a commitment to making difficult things feel inevitable โ€” and the discipline to make that look effortless.

They fall into three loose clusters, which might help you find your entry point. Structure builders โ€” McPhee, Caro, Grann โ€” write pieces that feel inevitable because the architecture is invisible but load-bearing. Emotional access โ€” Orlean, Junod, Thompson โ€” get you inside feeling before you know youโ€™re there. Voice and form โ€” Didion, Sullivan, Lewis, Anderson โ€” the sentence, the digression, the explanatory seduction, the essay as genuine inquiry. The clusters overlap, and the best writers in each group are doing all three things at once. But if youโ€™re trying to solve a specific problem in your own writing, the clusters tell you where to look first.

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Dayton Ohio History Memories

The Weight of What Arrived

The first thing you noticed was the smell. Hot metal and oil and something older underneath โ€” not unpleasant, exactly, more like the smell of a thing that knew what it was doing. Dayton Typographic Service on a Saturday morning. Dad already at his machine, pencil tucked over his ear, fingers moving. I was four or five. I had no idea what I was looking at. That was most of the point.

A Linotype machine is the size of a small car and louder than you expect. It sets type by casting individual lines in molten lead โ€” hence the name, line oโ€™ type โ€” and the whole apparatus runs hot, always, a controlled furnace at the center of the work. The operators moved around it with the casual authority of men who understood something dangerous well enough not to fear it. Dad was one of those men. He knew what he was doing with his hands, and watching him work was the first time I understood that intelligence could live in the body, not just the mind. The pencil over the ear was the tell. He was always thinking ahead of his hands.

We lived on Burleigh Avenue in a two-bedroom ranch so small the rooms felt like suggestions. There was a garage out back on the alleyway. The basement held more than youโ€™d expect. The furnace, coal-fed, which Dad stoked every morning before the rest of us were awake โ€” that heat, the warmth that was simply there when I came downstairs, was something he had made. He tended it the same way he tended the Linotype: with patience, with knowledge, with hands that knew the work.

But there was also the kiln. My folks did ceramics, and in a corner of that basement sat the kiln they fired their pieces in. To check the temperature you pulled out a cone โ€” a small pyramidal piece of clay engineered to droop at a specific heat โ€” and peered in at it through the door. I remember doing this, leaning in toward that rectangle of orange light, the blast of heat against my face, checking whether the cone had begun to bend. It was one of my earliest understandings that transformation was not instantaneous. You watched for it. You waited for the material to tell you.

There are men like that in every generation and then one generation there arenโ€™t. They knew how things worked because they had no choice but to know. The furnace would not stoke itself. The type would not set itself. The knowledge was not academic. It lived in the hands or it didnโ€™t live at all.


Union Station was only a few miles from Burleigh Avenue but it existed at a different scale entirely. You went through the main doors and there was a model railroad in the lobby โ€” an elaborate layout, HO scale or maybe O scale, I was too young to know the difference โ€” and sometimes they had it running, the little locomotives making their rounds through their little landscape, and I would stand there watching it with the focused attention that children bring to things they love. I did not know then that I was watching a miniature version of what was waiting upstairs.

The aunts and uncles came from New Jersey on the Pennsylvania Railroad. The Spirit of St. Louis, which ran between New York and St. Louis and stopped at Daytonโ€™s Union Station, was a name that meant something to me before I fully understood what a railroad was. What I understood was this: when they came, they brought TastyKakes.

If you didnโ€™t grow up in the Mid-Atlantic corridor you may not know TastyKakes, which is a condition I regard with sympathy. They are small cakes, individually wrapped, and they came in a cardboard box, and my aunts and uncles carried them off the train the way travelers have always carried the irreplaceable things of home. The Pennsylvania Railroad as delivery mechanism for Butterscotch Krimpets. The whole industrial apparatus of American locomotion bent toward that purpose.

But first there was the platform, and the waiting, and then the thing you felt before you heard it and heard before you saw it. The locomotive did not arrive so much as it asserted itself. The platform shook. The air changed. There was a sound that was also a pressure, a physical fact you received in your chest and your feet simultaneously, and then the engine was there, enormous, indifferent to its own enormity, trailing steam. Nothing I have encountered since has prepared me for anything the way that prepared me for everything. The world, it turned out, contained forces at that scale. It was useful to know.

My aunts and uncles stepped down onto the platform and there were embraces and the good confusion of arrival, and eventually the box of TastyKakes changed hands, and we drove back to the small house on Burleigh Avenue where Dad had been up since before dawn making sure it was warm.


I think about scale a lot now. The furnace that heated two bedrooms. The kiln glowing orange in the basement corner. The Linotype casting its lines of lead. The locomotive making the platform tremble. They were all of a piece โ€” a world in which the forces that ran your life were large and hot and loud and present, operated by people who understood them through their hands. You could go see them. You could stand close enough to feel the heat, smell it, watch it do its work on the material.

Dad is gone now. Union Station is gone โ€” demolished in 1976, replaced by a parking structure. The Linotype machines are in museums, or theyโ€™re not anywhere. The coal furnace was replaced by something cleaner and quieter and invisible.

I donโ€™t know what my children will remember. I hope it has weight.

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Friends Gratitude Kindness Living

The One Thing Money Doesnโ€™t Buy

Somewhere there is a couch that launched a hedge fund.

It belonged to a man named Carter, and for the better part of a year it was where Dan Loeb slept while he figured out what came next. No office. No fund. No Third Point. Just a friendโ€™s apartment and the specific grace of someone who didnโ€™t need you to have already become something before they let you in the door.

When Loeb finally landed at Jefferies, Carter gave him a few hundred thousand dollars to manage. That became a million. The million became seed capital. Third Point was built on top of it โ€” thirty years of it, billions of dollars of it โ€” and all of it traces back, in some straight unbroken line, to a couch and a person who said yes before the evidence was in.

Patrick Oโ€™Shaughnessy asked him about it near the end of a long conversation. The kindest thing anyone has ever done for you โ€” itโ€™s the question Oโ€™Shaughnessy always asks, and it always cuts through. Loeb had just finished making a case for kindness as a serious value, not a soft one. Something that belongs at the top of the hierarchy, he said, next to honesty and intelligence. The mechanism that unlocks empathy. He noted, almost reluctantly, that it also compounds in business โ€” before adding that the moment you start treating it as an investment, youโ€™ve already lost the thread.

Then he quoted Palmer Luckey.

The one thing money doesnโ€™t buy you is friends that believed in you when you had nothing.

Luckey built Oculus in his parentsโ€™ garage. Sold it for two billion. Founded Anduril. He has spent his adult life proving that if you are relentless and strange and right, you can make almost anything happen with money. And what he noticed, somewhere in all of that, is where money stops. Not at luxury. Not at access. It stops at loyalty that predates your success. You cannot purchase the memory of Carterโ€™s couch. You cannot acquire, at any price, the specific knowledge that someone held you when you were nothing yet.

I have been thinking about the people in my own life who did some version of this. Not always with money. A call made on your behalf before you knew you needed it. A door held open to a room you couldnโ€™t see. These moments are nearly invisible when they happen. They only become legible later, once the room turns out to matter โ€” once you can look back and trace the line.

The line is always shorter than you think. And it always ends at a person.

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Reading Writing

The Starting Five I Keep

On November 25, 1963, every journalist in America was at Arlington Cemetery covering the state funeral of John F. Kennedy. Jimmy Breslin went to find the grave digger.

His name was Clifton Pollard. He was paid $3.01 an hour. He had been called in on his day off because the foreman thought he was the best they had, and the foreman was right about that. Breslin spent the morning with him while the ceremony unfolded a few hundred yards away โ€” the dignitaries, the riderless horse, the flag folded into a triangle and handed to a widow. Pollard ate a ham sandwich and kept working.

The piece Breslin filed that afternoon is still taught in journalism schools sixty years later. Not because it covered the funeral better than anyone else. Because it didn’t cover the funeral at all. It found the true subject by ignoring the announced one.

That instinct โ€” turn away from the obvious, walk toward the unglamorous specific, trust that the universal is hiding there โ€” is the one idea I’ve returned to more than any other. It shows up in two very different writers who occupy, in my mind, the same position on the roster.

Breslin got there through deadline fury and a saloon-bred instinct for where the real story was breathing. He didn’t theorize about it. He just did it, on a deadline, in a city that rewarded the loud and the fast. John McPhee got to the same place by an entirely different route: patience, structure, and a willingness to spend six months learning how canoes are made or what happens to a piece of shad on its way up the Delaware River. Breslin worked like a man catching a cab. McPhee worked like a man building a cathedral.

But the underlying claim is identical. If you stay with a specific, unglamorous subject long enough โ€” if you resist the pull toward the obvious center โ€” it will eventually yield something that couldn’t have been reached directly. Pollard and his shovel. The orange grower and his grove. The nuclear physicist who also happens to be a canoe builder. The method is the same. Look where no one else is looking. Wait longer than feels reasonable. Write what you find.

This is one player, really. Just wearing two different jerseys.

The second seat belongs to Wright Thompson โ€” not a single book but a stance. The premise that the most revealing place in any story isn’t the event itself but the moment before and after it, when the subject is alone with something they haven’t yet put into words. Every piece in this tradition is quietly asking: what is this person carrying that they can’t say out loud? It’s a question that turns out to apply well beyond sportswriting. It applies to most things worth writing about.

The third is whatever the Apple design era taught about constraint and clarity. Not nostalgia โ€” something more durable. The idea that removing something can be an act of confidence. That the most useful things often appear to be doing less than they are. This one surfaces constantly in writing, in argument, in the editing pass where you decide what the piece actually needs versus what it accumulated along the way. Features are easy to add. Knowing what to cut requires a different kind of certainty.

The fourth is the philosophy embedded in spaced repetition โ€” not the algorithm but the claim underneath it. That knowledge you don’t revisit isn’t really yours. That understanding decays on a predictable schedule whether you acknowledge it or not. The honest response isn’t anxiety about this; it’s the habit of return. Going back to the same passage, the same idea, the same question on a different day, and finding it has changed โ€” or finding that you have.

The fifth seat shifts. That’s probably the right design. Four constants and one that evolves is roughly the correct ratio for a starting lineup that has to play in different eras. Right now that seat belongs to the question of what AI does to a practiced human sensibility โ€” whether it erodes it by substitution or clarifies it by contrast. Earlier it was held by a certain kind of systems thinking. Before that, something else. The player who earns that spot is always the one asking the question the current moment most needs answered.

The coach who wins five championships doesn’t do it with the same roster. But he does it with the same philosophy. The starting five aren’t the players who happened to be good once. They’re the ones who keep earning their minutes regardless of what the season throws at you.

Breslin knew where to find Clifton Pollard because he’d been looking in that direction his whole career. The skill wasn’t the story. The skill was knowing that the story was never where everyone else was standing.

That’s the one I keep coming back to.

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Bonsai Filoli Living

The Patience of Small Things

There is a tree on a terrace at Filoli that is roughly the size of a lamp. It sits in a shallow black bowl, its trunk leaning with the easy confidence of something that has been leaning for decades, its canopy splayed against the California sky like a fist slowly opening. Behind it, the estateโ€™s formal garden dissolves into soft focus โ€” roses, balustrades, the suggestion of abundance. The bonsai doesnโ€™t compete with any of it. It simply occupies its few cubic feet with a completeness that makes everything else feel approximate.

Iโ€™ve been thinking about what that completeness costs.

The tree is probably a juniper โ€” the fibrous, spiraling bark, the dense scale-like foliage, the way the branch structure seems to remember every decision ever made about it. Bonsai practitioners talk about nebari, the visible surface roots, and movement, the quality of dynamism frozen into wood. This one has both. The trunk doesnโ€™t just lean; it goes somewhere, pulled by some invisible argument the grower made with it over years, or decades, or longer. The moss at its base is so even and green it looks curated, because it was.

What strikes me standing in front of it is that this is a technology โ€” not in the semiconductor sense, but in the older one. A technique for shaping time. The grower didnโ€™t make this tree. They made conditions, and maintained them, and made them again, and the tree is what happened. The distinction matters. Thereโ€™s no shortcut to the trunk diameter. Thereโ€™s no prompt that produces the movement in that wood.

I work in a medium where the gap between intention and output has collapsed to nearly nothing. I describe something and it appears. Thereโ€™s tremendous utility in that, and Iโ€™m not romantic enough to pretend otherwise. But Filoliโ€™s bonsai terrace is a useful corrective โ€” a reminder that some forms of beauty are only legible as records of duration. The lean of that trunk is not a feature. Itโ€™s an argument made slowly, over a life, against gravity.

I donโ€™t know who grew it. I donโ€™t know if theyโ€™re still alive. The tree, characteristically, offers no information about this. It just stands there in its bowl, complete, patient, not particularly interested in being understood.

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Living Retirement Sports Writing

The Architecture of a Wound

I have read a lot of Wright Thompson pieces over the years. Enough to notice that I finish them feeling slightly implicated โ€” like I have been shown something true about a person I thought I understood, and the showing has cost me something comfortable. Thatโ€™s not a common feeling after reading sportswriting. Thompsonโ€™s a different kind of sports writer.

His profile of Steve Kerr, published this week in ESPN, is a case study in how he does it.

Go read it now. Before you continue here. Go read it!


The opening line: โ€œSteve Kerr walked into the lobby of the Beverly Wilshire with a secret.โ€

Thompson doesnโ€™t start with biography or context or the Warriorsโ€™ season. He starts with dramatic irony โ€” we are placed inside a moment where the subject knows something we donโ€™t, where the gap between public persona and private reality is already established before weโ€™ve gotten through the first sentence. We know, even before we know what the secret is, that the real story will be about what lives underneath the official one.

The secret is retirement. Kerr had made up his mind โ€” 95% certainty โ€” that this would be his last season. He checked in at the Beverly Wilshire, gave his room number, 516, as โ€œJohnny Bench Joe Montana,โ€ and then leaned across the breakfast table and almost mouthed the words: โ€œI think itโ€™s over.โ€

That room number detail is worth pausing on. It isnโ€™t decoration. A man who has spent 40 years inside professional basketball has encoded legends into the passwords of his daily life โ€” Benchโ€™s number, Montanaโ€™s number, woven together as a mnemonic for a hotel room heโ€™ll forget in three days. Thompson drops it and moves on without comment. He never explains it. He doesnโ€™t have to. The detail does its work the way a good poem does: you carry it with you, and it means more the longer you hold it.

This is the loaded object, and Thompson deploys it everywhere. Late in the piece, the coaches bond over the same memory trick on the road โ€” Thompson tells Kerr heโ€™s in room 2225, โ€œEmmitt Smith Rocket Ismail.โ€ The repetition isnโ€™t accidental. Itโ€™s Thompson showing us what the 82-game season actually is: a long chain of hotel rooms and encoded legends, a man building temporary homes out of other peopleโ€™s greatness.

Thompson earns the loaded objects by earning the access. He spent the entire season alongside Kerr โ€” embedded, unhurried, a still presence at the edge of the frame. The piece has the texture of someone who was there for the small moments precisely because he wasnโ€™t hunting the big ones. Heโ€™s in the coachesโ€™ locker room after losses, cracking Peronis on the team bus through the quiet midnight of Atlanta, at Pizzeria Bianco in Phoenix, at the Golden Gate Deli while Kerr eats his usual Honey Baked sandwich and texts โ€œConflictedโ€ and then adds: โ€œWhatโ€™s Lulu think?โ€ โ€œShe sees both sides.โ€

That kind of detail โ€” the dog with two minds about retirement โ€” is available only to a reporter who has spent enough time with a subject that the subject has stopped performing. Thompson collects these moments. They are the material.

But access is scaffolding. The building is what Thompson does with it.

Midway through the piece, he lands the paragraph that reorients everything that came before it. On January 18, 1984, a gunman shot Malcolm Kerr โ€” Steveโ€™s father, president of the American University of Beirut โ€” in the head. A family friend reached Steve in his dorm room at 3 a.m. Steve asked if his father was okay. There was a long pause. โ€œYour father was a great man,โ€ the friend finally said.

Steve ran downstairs and pounded on his teammatesโ€™ doors. Then he went and sat on the curb. โ€œOn Speedway Boulevard,โ€ he says, still remembering the cold concrete and the empty street. Thompson gives us that street name. He tells us Steve started walking, and that he hasnโ€™t slowed down since.

Suddenly the retirement question isnโ€™t about basketball at all.

The sport is Thompsonโ€™s vehicle. His real subject is always the wound underneath โ€” what drives a person to keep competing, keep building teams, keep moving, and what it means when the movement finally starts to slow. The question running beneath the entire Kerr piece isnโ€™t โ€œWill he stay or go?โ€ Itโ€™s the question Malcolmโ€™s assassination put into his son at 18, still unanswered 42 years later: what do you do when the thing that protected you from the worst moment of your life stops being available?

Thompson makes this explicit in one passage near the end. Kerr describes his fear about retirement: the coaching job, he says, doesnโ€™t just feed his soul โ€” it helps him manage his chronic daily pain. The pain, weโ€™ve learned by then, is rooted in unresolved trauma. Kerr has spent a year journaling every morning about his fatherโ€™s death and then deleting what he wrote, following a therapy program based on the idea that emotional wounds express themselves as physical ones. The back pain that plagued him for 12 years โ€” the migraines, the spinal leak, the decade of searching for relief from Mayo to Duke to England for stem-cell therapy โ€” began the same year he took the Warriors job. Writing opens the lines of communication. Winning keeps them open. Retirement threatens to seal them again.

Thompson doesnโ€™t editorialize. He just lays this all out, piece by piece, until the architecture becomes visible.

Thereโ€™s a moment in Minneapolis, late in the piece, that sticks with me.

The NBA has postponed a game after a nurse named Alex Pretti has been killed by federal agents. Kerr gathers the team in a hotel ballroom. Later, working through what to say publicly, he does something Thompson says heโ€™s never heard him do before โ€” he invokes his father.

โ€œMy father was killed by extremists,โ€ Kerr says, rehearsing lines. โ€œI know how that story ends.โ€

Thompson can hear his voice catch between sentences. โ€œIโ€™m crying right now,โ€ Kerr says.

At the press conference, Kerr doesnโ€™t mention his father. He talks about the families who will never get their loved ones back. He didnโ€™t have to say more. And Thompson, who was there for all of it โ€” the hotel ballroom, the phone call, the media room โ€” doesnโ€™t have to explain the connection either. Heโ€™s done the work of showing us who Malcolm Kerr was, what his assassination meant, how Steve has carried it. The press conference lands with the full weight of everything weโ€™ve already been given.

This is Thompson at his best: information as infrastructure, detail as detonator.

The piece ends not with a contract signing or a press conference. It ends with a granddaughter.

On the same day Kerr commits to returning โ€” the decision made, the call to Steph placed, the band getting back together โ€” his sonโ€™s younger daughter, Charlotte, takes her first steps. Kerr watches her toddle around the room. He thinks about his son as a toddler. He looks at the photograph on the wall of Nick and his older daughter grinning in front of the Golden Gate Bridge. โ€œIt all felt intertwined,โ€ Thompson writes. โ€œBlood family, basketball family, family. A cocoon, like his old Arizona manager said.โ€

That word โ€” cocoon โ€” has appeared once before. Itโ€™s what the Arizona manager called the arena the night Steve played two days after his father was killed. The crowd forming a protective warmth around a boy who had just lost everything. The team as shelter.

42 years later, itโ€™s still what Steve Kerr is building and protecting. Thompson knew to plant the word the first time so it could bloom at the end.

Thatโ€™s the technique. Thatโ€™s what I mean when I say reading him costs something. In a wonderful way. He shows you that the things people build โ€” teams, careers, dynasties โ€” are sometimes just very elaborate answers to questions they were asked at 18 on a cold curb on Speedway Boulevard. And then he leaves you with a baby taking her first steps, and you feel the whole weight of it all at once.

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Writing

The Unfinished Note

Iโ€™ve been sitting with a Susan Orlean line for a few days now, the way you sit with a splinter you canโ€™t quite locate.

โ€œStories donโ€™t need a โ€˜conclusion,โ€™ a flourish of finality. Itโ€™s better to leave readers falling forward, tumbling through the piece and beyond it, finishing the tune in their heads.โ€

What strikes me isnโ€™t the advice โ€” plenty of writing teachers have said something like it โ€” but the verb she chose. Tumbling. Not drifting. Not lingering. Tumbling. Thereโ€™s a loss of control in that word, a small helpless momentum, the way you take one more step than you expected on a dark staircase and your body has to catch up to itself.

Iโ€™ve always been suspicious of endings that arrive wearing their own bow. You can feel them coming, those last paragraphs โ€” the rhythm slows, the sentences get more declarative, the writer seems to straighten up and clear their throat. And then comes the lesson, the restatement, the turn toward uplift or hard-won wisdom. The piece explains what it was about. You close the browser tab and thatโ€™s the end of it.

But some pieces donโ€™t end so much as they stop, at the right moment and the right angle, and something in you keeps moving. You find yourself thinking about them in the shower two days later. Youโ€™re not remembering the conclusion because there wasnโ€™t one. Youโ€™re still inside the piece, finishing the tune, as Orlean says. The writer handed you the melody and walked off mid-phrase.

I think about this with music. Jazz, especially. The best solos donโ€™t resolve โ€” they suggest a resolution and then leave the air charged with it. Miles Davis understood that the note you donโ€™t play is still a note. The silence after the phrase is part of the phrase.

Iโ€™m not sure Iโ€™ve ever actually written an ending this way. Most of my pieces come in for a landing; I can feel myself starting to circle and descend. Maybe thatโ€™s the real lesson in Orleanโ€™s line โ€” not a craft note about structure, but a challenge to trust the reader enough to leave the door ajar. To believe the piece was good enough that theyโ€™ll want to keep walking around inside it.

Iโ€™m still not sure I do.

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Storytelling Writing

The Nerve of the Opening Line

For years I wrote first paragraphs that explained what I was about to say, which is a little like a joke that begins by describing how funny it is.

Susan Orlean has a better idea. In her book Joyride, she writes that a lede doesn’t need to preview the story or summarize what the rest of the piece will be about. What’s important is that it captivates readers and holds them fast to the page so they keep reading.

The conventional wisdom about ledes is that they exist to tell readers what they’re about to read. The billboard theory of the opening. Here is what this story is. Here is why it matters. Here is what you’ll find if you continue. The lede as table of contents, compressed.

Orlean is saying something stranger and more honest: the lede’s job is not to inform. It’s to hold the reader.

There’s a distinction there worth sitting with.

Informing a reader is a transaction โ€” you transfer content, they receive it. Holding a reader is something else entirely. It’s closer to what a magician does in the first thirty seconds of a performance, or what a stranger does when they say something at a party that makes you turn and face them fully. You haven’t learned anything yet. You’ve just been made to stay.

The ledes that have held me longest tend to have almost nothing to do with the stories they open.

Joan Didion begins “The White Album” with a single sentence โ€” “We tell ourselves stories in order to live” โ€” that takes the entire essay to even partially fulfill.

Gay Talese opens his Frank Sinatra profile not with Sinatra’s voice or his legend but with a man going silent: “Frank Sinatra, holding a glass of bourbon in one hand and a cigarette in the other, stood in a dark corner of the bar between two attractive but fading blondes who sat waiting for him to say something. But he said nothing.”

Tracy Kidder opens The Soul of a New Machine not with computers but with a boat in a storm, Tom West awake for four straight nights while everyone else is seasick, the rest of the crew left wondering what on earth this man does for a living.

None of these ledes summarize. All of them hold.

What they share, I think, is a quality of disturbance. They’ve moved the ground slightly underfoot. Something is tilted.

Didion’s first sentence argues that we tell ourselves stories in order to live, and you feel the vertigo in it immediately โ€” wait, is that true? Is that a good thing or a desperate thing?

Talese gives you a man diminished by illness and silence, and everything that follows is measured against that diminishment.

Kidder’s boat goes somewhere that prose about minicomputers wouldn’t, and by the time you’ve crossed that dark water with West, you’re already a different kind of reader than you were on page one.

I think about this when I try to write.

I grew up reading ledes the billboard way โ€” I thought the first paragraph was a promise about what the reader would receive. And sometimes I still write them that way, which is to say I write them first and delete them later, because they’re stage fright disguised as generosity. Here is what I’m about to tell you really means please don’t leave before I find my footing.

The Orlean formulation โ€” captivate, hold, keep reading โ€” shifts the pressure off the writer’s anxiety and onto the reader’s experience. The question is no longer what do I need to tell them? The question is what will make them unable to leave?

That’s a harder question. It requires knowing something about what people can’t resist. Strangeness. Motion. A body in trouble. A door left open. The suggestion that someone knows something you don’t.

The best ledes I’ve ever written didn’t come first. They came after I’d already written the whole piece and finally understood what it was actually about โ€” which turned out not to be the thing I thought it was about at the start. You can’t write the sentence that makes someone stay until you know what you’re asking them to stay for.

The lede isn’t a promise. It’s a wager. You’re betting that the reader will follow disturbance into the dark โ€” and the only way to make that bet is to trust the disturbance yourself first. Most of us don’t. Most of us write the billboard because we’re afraid that if we don’t explain what’s coming, the reader will leave.

But the reader doesn’t leave because they’re confused. They leave because nothing reached out and held them.

The explanation never does that. The strangeness might.

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Books Living Quotations

The Smallness of Being Nowhere

Thereโ€™s a sentence I keep returning to from Blue Highways, William Least Heat-Moonโ€™s account of driving the back roads of America after his marriage ended and his teaching job disappeared in the same week:

โ€œIn a hotel room at the geographical center of North America, a neon sign blinking red through the cold curtains, I lay quietly like a small idea in a vacant mind.โ€

Iโ€™ve read it probably a dozen times now and it still does something to me. The question I canโ€™t shake: why does it work so completely?


The setup is all precision and specificity. โ€œThe geographical center of North Americaโ€ โ€” Heat-Moon is actually in Rugby, North Dakota, a place so particular it exists mostly as a fact. You cannot be more specifically somewhere on a continent and also be more nowhere. Thatโ€™s the first compression: location as the opposite of orientation.

Then the neon sign. Red through cold curtains. He doesnโ€™t describe the room โ€” the bed, the low ceiling, the highway sound. He gives you the one sensory detail that pulses, that intrudes. Red blinking through fabric. Thatโ€™s loneliness rendered as light. You donโ€™t need the rest of the room. You already know it.

And then the simile arrives, and itโ€™s the sentenceโ€™s whole reason for existing.

Like a small idea in a vacant mind.

Whatโ€™s strange is that it shouldnโ€™t work. Itโ€™s abstract โ€” ideas, minds โ€” in a sentence thatโ€™s been building toward the physical and concrete. But Heat-Moon has earned the turn. Heโ€™s given us geography, then sensation, and now he cashes both in for something interior. The simile tells you exactly how the previous details felt from the inside: not tragic, not dramatic, not even particularly sad. Just small. A flicker of thought in an empty space.

The word โ€œquietlyโ€ is doing more than it announces. He doesnโ€™t lie there awake or restless or afraid, all the words that would have been available and true and insufficient. He lies quietly, which is a posture, not an emotion. It places him in the scene without claiming too much about what the scene means.

This is what I find myself most drawn to: the sentence doesnโ€™t reach for profundity. It doesnโ€™t tell you this moment is significant, doesnโ€™t linger on the loss that brought him there. It just describes, precisely, what itโ€™s like to be a self that has temporarily lost its weight โ€” to exist at the center of something vast while feeling like an afterthought in your own head.


Thereโ€™s another line from the same book that works entirely differently, and I keep it nearby as a kind of corrective:

โ€œLife doesnโ€™t happen along interstates. Itโ€™s against the law.โ€

The first sentence is a philosophy. The second sentence is a joke about highway regulations that somehow confirms the philosophy. The gap between those two moves โ€” the microsecond where you process that he means both things โ€” is where the humor lives.

Whatโ€™s funny is also true: the interstate is literally designed to prevent you from stopping, from turning off, from being anywhere specific. You are processed through the landscape like freight. Heat-Moon understood that the road you take isnโ€™t a neutral choice. The blue highways of the title โ€” the old two-lane routes, drawn in blue on gas station maps โ€” were the ones where you might actually arrive somewhere, talk to someone, become something other than your destination.

The joke earns its keep because it doesnโ€™t explain itself. He trusts you to feel the absurdity and then sit with the fact that absurdity is sometimes just accuracy.


What strikes me, holding both sentences together, is how much range lives in a single book. The hotel room passage asks you to feel the weight of smallness. The interstate line asks you to laugh at the systems we build to keep life at a safe distance. Both are true. Both are, in their different registers, about the same thing: what you miss when you move through the world without stopping.

Thatโ€™s what the geographical center does. At the exact middle of a continent, you are as far from every edge as you can be. You are equidistant from significance. The neon blinks anyway. And you are there, small, in the dark โ€” on a blue highway, not an interstate. Which means, at least according to Heat-Moon, that something might still happen.

I donโ€™t know why I find this more moving than sentences that try harder. Maybe because precision, applied to the right details, is its own kind of tenderness.

Or maybe itโ€™s just that Iโ€™ve been that small idea in a vacant mind, and itโ€™s a relief to find it named.