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Books Curiosity Living

Working the Seams

This book highlight popped up in my morning Readwise feed recently:

โ€œFishermen work seamsโ€”seams between slow water and fast, between deep water and shallow, between sunlight and shadow. The eddies around rocks, the bubble lines along banks. Thatโ€™s where the fish are.โ€

Neil King wrote it in American Ramble, his account of walking from Washington to New York. He was watching fishermen, not fishing himself, which maybe explains why it reads less like instruction and more like revelation. When youโ€™re the observer, you have room to notice what the practitioner is too busy doing to say.

The word seams is doing something I canโ€™t stop thinking about. A seam is a joining. Itโ€™s the place where two different things meet and, in meeting, create a third thing: the edge itself. Not slow water, not fast water, but the turbulent conversation between them. The fish arenโ€™t in the slow water. They arenโ€™t in the fast water. Theyโ€™re in the argument.


I think most of the interesting things in life happen at seams.

The best conversations arenโ€™t the ones where everyone agrees. Theyโ€™re the ones where two people with genuinely different orientations are standing at the same edge, looking at the same water. The friction between the views creates something neither would reach alone.

The best writing isnโ€™t the settled opinion, the fully-arrived-at conclusion. Itโ€™s the essay in the old sense โ€” the attempt โ€” where you can feel the writer at the seam of what they know and what theyโ€™re reaching toward. The bubble line between understanding and confusion. Thatโ€™s where the reader is, too, if theyโ€™re lucky.

I notice this on my own blog sometimes. The posts that feel most alive to me arenโ€™t the ones where I knew what I wanted to say before I started. Theyโ€™re the ones where I began at a seam โ€” between something Iโ€™d always believed and something that recently unsettled it โ€” and wrote my way along the edge, not knowing which bank Iโ€™d end up on.


Thereโ€™s a version of this that applies to attention itself.

I dwell on how I pay attention โ€” when Iโ€™m reading, when Iโ€™m walking, when Iโ€™m in conversation. And Iโ€™ve noticed that my attention goes flat in the middle of things. Flat terrain. Constant depth. Unchanging light. I have to work to stay present when nothing is in transition.

But put me at a seam โ€” a moment where the mood in a room is shifting, where a piece of music is about to resolve or refuse to resolve, where someone is on the verge of saying something theyโ€™ve been circling for an hour โ€” and Iโ€™m completely there. Attention is predatory, maybe. It goes where the tension is.

Which is what the fish are doing, of course. The seam isnโ€™t just a metaphor for where interesting things happen. Itโ€™s why interesting things happen there. The fast water sweeps food along; the slow water lets you hold your position; the seam between them is where you can eat without being eaten. The fish are solving a real problem. Theyโ€™re just also, accidentally, living beautifully.


I wonder sometimes if this is what makes a good editor, or a good friend who reads your drafts. They find the seams โ€” the places where youโ€™ve unconsciously papered over a tension, smoothed the fast water into the slow, given the reader no place to be a fish. โ€œSomethingโ€™s off here,โ€ they say, and what they mean is: you resolved this too quickly. Stay in the argument longer.

The eddies around rocks, the bubble lines along banks.

I want to be a better noticer of those. Not to resolve them. Just to work them.

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Living Music Writing

The Tonic Chord of a Life

We spend a good portion of our lives surrounded by noise. Not just the literal kindโ€”the hum of traffic or the ping of notificationsโ€”but the internal noise of unresolved tensions.

I was reminded of this while listening to a recent conversation between David Perell and the legendary journalist Tom Junod (https://youtu.be/JnHTUyZjwiY). Towards the end of their sprawling, beautiful discussion, Junod introduced a metaphor about writing that made me pause the audio and just sit with it for a moment. He talked about the “tonic chord.”

“Musicians, you know, back in the day, they were always looking for the tonic chord. And writing, I’m always looking for the tonic chordโ€ฆ where all the discordant harmonies are resolved in a single ba-boom, you know, at the end of Beethoven or whateverโ€ฆ looking for some sort of resolution to the stuff that gnaws at me.” [00:39:42]

Itโ€™s a striking image. In music theory, the tonic is the home base, the center of gravity. It is the chord that finally brings rest after a long sequence of tension and suspense. Without the preceding dissonance, the tonic chord has no power. The chaos isn’t an obstacle to the resolution; it is the very environment that makes the resolution meaningful.

This applies far beyond the blank page. We are all, in our own ways, searching for our tonic chords.

We carry around the stuff that gnaws at usโ€”the contradictions in our relationships, the career choices that look good on paper but feel hollow in the chest, the quiet hypocrisies we tolerate in ourselves. These are the discordant notes. We spend so much of our lives trying to ignore them, turning up the volume on our daily routines to drown out the clash. Or we try to fix them with brute force, stubbornly demanding harmony before weโ€™ve even listened to the melody.

But maybe the point isn’t to erase the tension. Junodโ€™s geniusโ€”both in his essays and in this metaphorโ€”is his willingness to sit with the discomfort. He looks directly at the friction. He places two opposing truths right next to each other, letting them rub like tectonic plates, waiting patiently for that final chord to finally release the pressure.

I think about the architecture of a well-lived life in much the same way. The most resonant moments I’ve experienced havenโ€™t come from a smooth, unbroken string of successes. They usually arrive right after a period of intense confusion or struggleโ€”a sudden moment of clarity on a foggy morning walk, a tough but honest conversation with a friend, or finally letting go of an idea that had lost its spark.

That sudden ba-boom of clarity. The release.

We are taught from childhood that a good life should be harmonious. But true harmony is earned. It requires us to listen closely to the discordant parts of our lives, to bear witness to our own messes and mysteries, and to patiently search for the truth that finally brings them all together.

Often, it is the ultimate act of self-awareness.

Seek serendipity.

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